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ARGHHH

Its seriously crazy how one text from you can bring back ALL of those feelings. I thought i was over it, i made myself forget and now i remember aas if it was yestarday all over again. I miss you, Its different this time though, i haven’t tried to replace you, i haven’t pushed myself into something meaninless to numb the pain, i just moved on, the healthy way i guess. Its seriously crazy how i NEVER EVER will let myself fall again, fuck that, the amazing feelings of the highs are not worth the lows, love isnt all its cracked up to be folks its just a concept we see in movies but its nothing like that. The base feeling of love is pain, period everything about love hurts, and to be honest im done with it. For all of my exes who i’ve hurt, escpecially (you) i am truly sorry for being a horrible boyfriend, i wanted to love you, i wanted to be what you needed but i just dont feel like im capable. Despite what any of you may believe i seriously how your all happy and i sincerly wish the best for all of you.

And to you, i dont believe i ruined love for you, i believe that theres somebody out there who can love you, who want treat you bad, i promise you’ll find him, until then dont settle.

Why is it that everybody wants to find love? I think its crazy, why would you wanna put yourself through that? Yeah its nice while you have it, but you ALWAYS lose it, and the pain isn’t WORTH it.

I love you weenie <3

WOW FML

My phone just died for the first time in forever and my welcome message just broke my heart….

LIfe

this is new.

for the first time in a LONG time im happpy as hell. &no weed is involved!

01/14/12

I cant be inlove with you….

I just met you,

But i cant stop thinking about you….

…

…my heart hurts PERIOD.

I love her….

I love her, but lately shits seemed different, maybe its me maybe its her. I wish we could fix this i really do, but can we? Or will we just get deeper and deeper and end up hurting eachother? I dont  wanna hurt you, i wanna love you, i wanna be with you , i just dont know how. I wonder alot if you really want this, idk maybe if  you showed me maybe if you put your self all the way out ther maybe if you let down that wall, and understand i HAVE changed im not the same person i was before, your pushing me away this time, and you dont even realize it. We bleed out, and i feel like shit becasuse i couldnt find a band aid. I constantly play scenarios in my head and its weird becasue even though i fell like i cant be with you anymore i cant picture my self doing anyhting else. Idk maybe your better off with someone else maybe you’ll be happy, so im letting you go, it shoudnt be this easy….you used to NEED to stop me,

“please stay with me”, why do i wanna hear those words so bad?

lovealways.

(nospaces)

p.s Your too good to be with someone who doesnt love you aim high ;) accept nothing less.

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